Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Live into the Answers

"I know nothing with any certainty, but the sigh of stars makes me dream" -Van Gogh

Milky Way by Meago

"I beg you to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart, and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers which could not be given you now because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer."

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Run The World

I love this song and video. It makes me feel like awesome fire inside.
BEYONCE! Who run the world?! Girls!

How I felt hanging up my Hasbro contract on my wall today. dream come true!

Sunday, August 28, 2011

healing anniversary

Phoenix by Amorphisss

It has been one year since I started working intensely on my healing with a clinic that specializes in nutrition and psychology practices for people with ME/CFS. It has been a really long road and I was hoping I'd feel great when it came time to write this blog, but writing it has also been therapeutic. It's hard to see on a day to day basis how life has improved but taking stock over the last year really helps me see how far I've come.

Since starting the program, this is how I have improved:
-My fibromyalgia disappeared after 3 months.
-I lost any excess weight (between 15-20 pounds) almost immediately, in the first 3 months.
-My brain fog lifted considerably after about 5 months, I can now read and work on my computer for great lengths without to much issue. I used to always forget my phone number or email address and now that problem hardly happens.
-the overall Pain and Poison feeling has really dissapated
- I have had at least a dozen days here and there where I actually felt really WELL
- in the last few months my cortisol has subsided enough that I have started to gain muscle (despite minimal exercise, the muscles are growing on their own)
- Miracles have happened: I've had jobs pop up that allow me to work from home, other little miracles have awed me on so many levels.
- I sleep very well most nights, and my horrible anxiety and nightmares have nearly evaporated completely.
- I seem to recover better from set backs, quicker and more completely.
- I don't spend most of my time in bed. It went from 4-6 days a week in bed, to 1 day a week in bed, to very recently maybe a few days a month in bed. Now I can spend more time on the computer working and outdoors.
- My thinking has shifted from a world full of rules and "supposed to's", to a world of miracles and endless possibilities.
- I got over my addiction to sugar and caffeine after about 3 months of nutrition guidance.
- I used to vomit quite frequently, for no apparent reason. I couldn't tell if it was a stomach problem or a brain problem (balance or neuro-toxin or exhaustion), and now I hardly ever get sick like that.
- Any use of my muscles, lifting my arms to hang clothes or do dishes used to be unbearable, so much pain and poison feeling, now even if I'm tired they just feel tired and I know to rest, rather than feeling that awful pain.
-I've had moments where I really thought "I'm not ill anymore", and I know more and more of those moments will come.
- This time last year I could not stand up to shower. Now I rarely have to take baths, I can shower 4 times a week and be fine, without needing to nap for an hour afterwards. Now I can meditate just 10 or 15 minutes afterwards and be ready to dress and move forward.
- the four previous years I had the flu about 3 times each year and was on antibiotics twice each year.. in the last year I have not had the flu or had to take antibiotics.

This journey to recovery is grueling and I have to be disciplined on every level imaginable, but I have seen beauty and appreciation for life also emerge from this experience, as I wrote in a previous blog. I like to fantasize that I'll get the last 5 years of my life back with interest, and envision a future full of activity, travel, wealth, health, friends, people, experiences, and more. I plan to make up for my lost 20's and see my life as being better for the experience, and know I will treasure every moment even more because of the hardship I've seen.

I want to take this moment to thank my family and friends who have been so unimaginably supportive and continue to endure the confusing times they've had with me through this process. I have an enormous amount of love and respect for all of you.


Lizards and New Blog to follow!

This week I started a new collaborative blog with my fellow UCLA Animators, so keep it in your favorites, follow it on your blogger, or add your email to the site to get updates when there are new posts. I think this will be good!

Follow us at . Toodaloo!

Saturday, August 27, 2011

Pixar Stamps!

I got my pixar stamps today! woo hoo! So much fun.

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

my only friend

sketch of the day, Rapunzel with pascal, her only friend. Also, Lotte (Charlotte) from Princess and the Frog and then my doggies. =)

May be the last sketch for a while since I'm starting on a new project tomorrow and will be all drawing-ed out by the end of the day.

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

Friendship is MAGIC-al

here is my sketchbook for today, and to make up for yesterday I also did some color. These are human avatars of the My Little Pony characters.
A good start but I'd definitely like to do them differently. I was playing with different proportions and styles. *shrug* I unabashedly share my sketchbook, even the pieces I don't like, so that I'm forced to keep working and get better!

Here are some examples of other ponies works.

And here is a link to even MORE pony work!!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

color my sunday

worked with color today. so much more satisfying than wrestling with photoshop, though the color did not scan very well.
The ghoulish girl is from a dream I had last night about a bunch of kids who had been horribly butchered by various things, and they all had different personalities/reactions to their injuries... I think I had the dream because a preview of Final Destination was forced upon my brain. yuck. i hate that stuff. anyway, I guess a good character came out of it. She's very corpse bride-ish.

Of course needed to add some rainbow brite for the color part =D

Friday, August 12, 2011

mermaid sketches

Mermaid sketches today! I should probably start using body models so I stop effing up anatomy but I didn't want all my drawings to be references. The only reference in this sketch is the peter pan mermaid.

old is new!

Decided to post some old works on my deviant art page including a compilation of my zodiac series. There are some anatomy issues but this was 6 years ago (when I was studying in England, gosh how time flies!) so I think I've learned a little since then =P Enjoy:

Thursday, August 11, 2011

SYTYCD Finale swoon

Don't worry, no spoilers here, I just thought I would share my fav routines of SYTYCD past and present, and feel like one of the "jidges"!
Courtney and Mark "The Garden":

Randi and Evan "The Butt Dance":

Twitch and Alex "Outta Your Mind" (can't embed here)

Kayla and Max "Hot Like Wow":

Top 8 Season 8 "Circus":

Hawk and Jaimie "The Hummingbird and the Flower":

Neil and Danny Two princes to "Are you the One":

Top 10 Girls Season 8 Geisha Dance:

Top 10 Boys Season 8 Red Door Dance:

Ok enough for now FUNNNNN =D

3 day catch up

(click each drawing for a full size view =D )

I did the last three days worth of sketches today so I got kind of pooped out. -__- will sleep well tonight.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Sketching moree

Couldn't upload for some reason but I'm back! Enjoy the sketches =D

Saturday, August 6, 2011

help me marry a brony


Sketch of the day! =D


Wednesday, August 3, 2011

I have a dream!

Had to draw from Tangled today, as I kept singing the " I have a dream " song to my doggies... *embarassing* but I just love the scene and the ruffians and the little old cupid man! Couldn't wait to draw him =P

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Sketch of the Day

Sketchbook from ... well technically yesterday but I did it late last night. Hope to make it a more regular thing =P

Monday, August 1, 2011

Tumble Me Tumblers

I now have a tumblr to post pics and quotes and stuff of my favorite things.

Follow Meh! And give me a link to yours!

Work In Progress: Steam Punk Girl

Getting really behind now on the Girls Drawing Girls themes, because I'm trying to do paintings that take like 5 -10 hours. I'm going to go ahead and try to do the other themes in short paintings like an hour like my 4th of July post.
So here is a work in progress that will hopefully get done one day....

Here is a close up of some of the steam-punky details on the original sketch.

The bird and details were inspired by an artist I saw at the Cherry Creek art festival, a series called Mullanium by Jim and Tori.... see some of their works: